I did some shopping after work and then had a drink with some friends, and for the whole five hours this took, I’ve felt people have been staring and making negative judgements about me.

It started as soon as I left work.…

Maybe I spoke too soon yesterday when I proudly announced that my mood had been assessed as normal. I’m not so sure that would have been today’s judgement. I’ve been feeling weepy on and off recently but not for any specific reasons that I can identify.…

This isn’t going to be the blog entry I’d planned to write.

I’ve unexpectedly been left feeling sad and undermined by something that happened a little while ago. I’d had a great evening out with Laura and was just getting home on the bus.…

This afternoon the cab company who take me to and from work called to say they were going to suspend my account from Friday. This is because of the complex way Access to Work pay for my travel, and the bad experiences the cab company have had with other people using this scheme.…

I had a great evening out last night. I caught up with friends I hadn’t seen for a while and met lots of new people. Sometimes I worry that it seems as if it’s not me but just a bunch of wild tics that have come out, and that I’m lost under them.…

The day started badly when I was told to get off a bus for swearing. This particularly upset me because it’s my birthday and I was late for a lunch date with my mum. The day got better as it wore on and ended with a party in a local pub.…

I’m fed up with constantly moving about and I just want to be still. I was watching TV this evening and found not being able to sit quietly was really frustrating.

I’ve just put the phone down after talking to Leftwing Idiot. I’d only just left his house for the five minute walk back to the lair when something happened that made me call him in floods of tears.

An ambulance driver who’d been going past me in slow traffic had mimicked me over and over again shouting from his window, and when he saw me looking upset, he laughed.…